Demanding an answer

and explanation for the sadness behind my eyes

what a fucking surprise!

The perfect smile wavers

your sunshine is not as warm as you thought

what a cheating fraud!

The broken throat musters a laugh

it’s sarcastically bitter, like the illusions you fed

cutting my only life-thread.

I believed you in desperate wish to believe

that even I can find something to look forward to

I should have known it can’t be true.

Still, I got up every morning savouring the hope

in the back of the dump of my frigid consciousness

but despair is bottomless.

Glasses up! Let’s burn my strive for goodness for good

I’m tired of stitching the gaping wounds with fairy-tales

the angel in me bails.