Demanding an answer
and explanation for the sadness behind my eyes
what a fucking surprise!
The perfect smile wavers
your sunshine is not as warm as you thought
what a cheating fraud!
The broken throat musters a laugh
it’s sarcastically bitter, like the illusions you fed
cutting my only life-thread.
I believed you in desperate wish to believe
that even I can find something to look forward to
I should have known it can’t be true.
Still, I got up every morning savouring the hope
in the back of the dump of my frigid consciousness
but despair is bottomless.
Glasses up! Let’s burn my strive for goodness for good
I’m tired of stitching the gaping wounds with fairy-tales
the angel in me bails.