It suffocates me

wrecks me from the inside

and I want to hide

I need to break free!

It twists me

Until I don’t recognise myself

nor the benefit or wealth

it promised.

I am wrecked and helpless

Almost godless.

The stress levels

are high enough to scorch

my shaky nerves

and my resilient resolve.

I don’t want to be involved

and yet it’s known to be decided

I cannot run nor fight it.